08-26-2021, 12:31 AM
And the only reason I haven't thought about this shit sooner and put it all together is because I was so fucking traumatized by the experience...
Everyone around me who knew was totally traumatized and fucked in the head over it.
I had to stuff it way down and act like the shit never happened...
And it's taken me about 18 years to even let myself start to think about it.
I actually went over the entire experience (for the first time) recently...
Probably a few months back now.
I spent a night recounting the entire story from the beginning, out loud (alone of course).
For the first time in my life since it happened.
Everyone around me who knew was totally traumatized and fucked in the head over it.
I had to stuff it way down and act like the shit never happened...
And it's taken me about 18 years to even let myself start to think about it.
I actually went over the entire experience (for the first time) recently...
Probably a few months back now.
I spent a night recounting the entire story from the beginning, out loud (alone of course).
For the first time in my life since it happened.
