05-11-2022, 04:52 AM
There has been some strange fuckery afoot.
I'm just saying.
I'd LOVE to just have it be paranoia. That would be so great.
Even better: Mercury in Retrograde.
But it's been taking place for over four months now.
First, there's the weird shit I mentioned in another thread with letters disappearing and reappearing as I type them. I've tried everything humanly possible to troubleshoot it and it's still happening.
Far more disconcerting is that my Pro Tools files seem to be getting subtly altered. For those who don't know, Pro Tools is a DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) that allows you to record and mix many tracks of music and sound. The subtle alterations are: tracks being moved around ever so slightly, so that songs sound more and more out of synch. Or tracks being slightly warped for a similar effect.
I'm not saying I am 100% sure that's what's happening. But the reality is, I DO know some fed-level elite hackers. And they've shown me some fuckery that they were quite proud of, and I was like "note to self: remember not to get on their bad side". But I just can't relate to how that is funny or entertaining.
I seem to have a knack for attracting men into my life who get jealous of me and deal with it by trying to gaslight me. I realize that sounds like I think I'm more interesting than I am (aka delusional). But I don't. In fact, I think it's fucking bizarre. I don't see what there is to be jealous of. But I can FEEL it. It's like a low-level hatred. I never feel that way toward others. Period. I'm so into myself and my art and so forth, I can't be bothered to even think about people on that level. It's a pocket of social behavior that I've never understood.
An ex gf of mine recently said that if someone installed a camera in my home she would constantly spy on me. And I'm like... dude... never mind the fact that you'd totally be betraying our friendship... but how is that even interesting for you? I couldn't give a F U C K about ANYone's private life. Never mind that it would be totally horrific for me to willingly invade another's privacy without their consent -- I just flat out wouldn't be interested. Period.
I'm just saying.
I'd LOVE to just have it be paranoia. That would be so great.
Even better: Mercury in Retrograde.
But it's been taking place for over four months now.
First, there's the weird shit I mentioned in another thread with letters disappearing and reappearing as I type them. I've tried everything humanly possible to troubleshoot it and it's still happening.
Far more disconcerting is that my Pro Tools files seem to be getting subtly altered. For those who don't know, Pro Tools is a DAW (Digital Audio Workstation) that allows you to record and mix many tracks of music and sound. The subtle alterations are: tracks being moved around ever so slightly, so that songs sound more and more out of synch. Or tracks being slightly warped for a similar effect.
I'm not saying I am 100% sure that's what's happening. But the reality is, I DO know some fed-level elite hackers. And they've shown me some fuckery that they were quite proud of, and I was like "note to self: remember not to get on their bad side". But I just can't relate to how that is funny or entertaining.
I seem to have a knack for attracting men into my life who get jealous of me and deal with it by trying to gaslight me. I realize that sounds like I think I'm more interesting than I am (aka delusional). But I don't. In fact, I think it's fucking bizarre. I don't see what there is to be jealous of. But I can FEEL it. It's like a low-level hatred. I never feel that way toward others. Period. I'm so into myself and my art and so forth, I can't be bothered to even think about people on that level. It's a pocket of social behavior that I've never understood.
An ex gf of mine recently said that if someone installed a camera in my home she would constantly spy on me. And I'm like... dude... never mind the fact that you'd totally be betraying our friendship... but how is that even interesting for you? I couldn't give a F U C K about ANYone's private life. Never mind that it would be totally horrific for me to willingly invade another's privacy without their consent -- I just flat out wouldn't be interested. Period.
