05-09-2019, 09:53 PM
Geez, that was harsh.
But I do appreciate the feedback. I worked on that letter off and on all day today. I stopped at certain points and had MS Word read it back to me while I listened on my headphones and ate snacks. At one point I really got into the flow of it so much that I went into the kitchen and did a short dance routine; more or less trying to get my steps in order on a little jog I am teaching myself called the “showcase”. I plan to implement this move at an engagement party next month. More on that later...
Whenever I thought of something new to say, I would add it. I think it was really healing for me to write it all out and get it all down. It’s kind of like a diary or a journal of my tire heart. Like this one friend told me one time, “bro, you didn’t write that letter for her; you wrote it for you - so that you could hear yourself and see how your heart is feeling.” In hindsight, I think that advice was helpful.
Long story short, I have shared the letter with my GF and I think she really appreciated the time that I put into doing it. She is really thinking over what I’ve said and overall I’m pretty impressed with her reaction.
While I somewhat admit that parts of it might seem a little dramatic, I have to say that one way or another these were just true words I needed to get out and even if no one in the world believes me, I need to stay true to myself and the facts of my truth will override the thoughts others think about me - mainly because I have to live in my own headspace and get my own groove on - you need to live in yourself and so does everyone else.
I don’t really like the personal attacks, but it just shows me where other people need to grow. There are lots of banged up, hurting folks out there and that’s what I am also trying to say. Part of putting yourself out there in love means spreading a word or two of healing for the other trashed and hurting masses. You know, shoot up a few prayers for the hurting and focus on your own groove and people will just fall in place to work out your path alongside you. Life is an awesome journey!
But I do appreciate the feedback. I worked on that letter off and on all day today. I stopped at certain points and had MS Word read it back to me while I listened on my headphones and ate snacks. At one point I really got into the flow of it so much that I went into the kitchen and did a short dance routine; more or less trying to get my steps in order on a little jog I am teaching myself called the “showcase”. I plan to implement this move at an engagement party next month. More on that later...
Whenever I thought of something new to say, I would add it. I think it was really healing for me to write it all out and get it all down. It’s kind of like a diary or a journal of my tire heart. Like this one friend told me one time, “bro, you didn’t write that letter for her; you wrote it for you - so that you could hear yourself and see how your heart is feeling.” In hindsight, I think that advice was helpful.
Long story short, I have shared the letter with my GF and I think she really appreciated the time that I put into doing it. She is really thinking over what I’ve said and overall I’m pretty impressed with her reaction.
While I somewhat admit that parts of it might seem a little dramatic, I have to say that one way or another these were just true words I needed to get out and even if no one in the world believes me, I need to stay true to myself and the facts of my truth will override the thoughts others think about me - mainly because I have to live in my own headspace and get my own groove on - you need to live in yourself and so does everyone else.
I don’t really like the personal attacks, but it just shows me where other people need to grow. There are lots of banged up, hurting folks out there and that’s what I am also trying to say. Part of putting yourself out there in love means spreading a word or two of healing for the other trashed and hurting masses. You know, shoot up a few prayers for the hurting and focus on your own groove and people will just fall in place to work out your path alongside you. Life is an awesome journey!
